reflections.
man...
i really missed the times when we always had chances to have talks like this.
and yeah, we should do it more often.
:)
is it really that hard to show your concern for someone?
or worse, feel slighted (or even ashamed) just because you're displaying your concern?
now think.
it is just that you feel the person is not worth it/ will not appreciate it/ is not comfortable with it,
or is it just you?
seriously, i don't understand.
not at all.
friends.
i have little.
five fingers are more than enough for the number to be displayed.
but yes,
when you meet the really good friends
the ones who really understand and appreciate you,
so what if you may only have one or two?
they are enough.
the key is to be contented and learn how to treasure and cherish them.
trust is so vital in a relationship,
any relationship,
that i think the bond that is there would be worthless without it.
and yet, how many people can really trust another?
are you willing to take the risk?
but the point is, if you really placed your trust on that person,
it should not even be termed a risk,
isn't it?
will love turn into pity?
when you understand a person too well,
will it be harder to differentiate the motive for your concern and care towards him?
out of love? or that you know how much he needs you?
and when this time came,
is it possible,
will it ever be possible to handle and contain the emptiness that is all that is left in the once flaming passion?
will understanding the person's reasons and love too much lead to doubts about your own?
i'm so stubborn that sometimes i feel irritated at myself.
but i just cannot accept it sometimes.
even when after when i thought of it and realised it's right.
but at that point of time it'll probably take a trained counsellor to make me snap my head to the direction that he/she points me to.
or even worse.
petty, petty, petty.
am not broad-hearted at all to accept trivial frustrations strewn my way.
so short-tempered that i can just blow up anytime.
sigh.
i need to replenish my meagre 4 hours of sleep.
swimming tomorrow!
a delicious tan.
yummy
may i not turn into a lobster tomorrow.
